So I've determined when you think everything is going great, life reminds you each day is different.
I haven't had much to write since the Internet came back into my life because I've become a lost soul. I've turned into a directionless person. This is impossible for me to cope with. I'm the kind of person that's determined as hell. Which makes this time RIGHT NOW extremely difficult. It's like I'm almost two different people. You have the person who goes to class and loves it. (I know it's weird I like a lot of my classes right now, yeah yeah give it time). This person loves to go out on the weekends and can't wait to watch the big game (CSU vs. CU) on Saturday. Then you have the person who can't stop thinking about what the hell am I going to go when I graduate in less than a year. I'm not going to take just some ole job I know I can do. I'm not going to start my life after college on some path I don't want to be on. I'm too young to settle. So you have these two people trying to battle what I do with my time. How much time do I invest in certain activities? What's most important to me RIGHT NOW. I have hundreds of different things running through my head right now. And I know everyone's been telling me you are not alone. Ok well that doesn't make me feel better. I believe what sets me aside from some people is THE FACT I have direction. I've lost my edge.
However, I'm determined to figure out what I hell I'm doing. I am determined to decide what state I want to live it when May strolls around. I am determined to find my career path that will produce the results I want to live with.
You might say I'm on the right track. You know, I sound like I'm making things happen. But I want to remind you there is only so much time in the day and I'll be damned if I don't live my life.
So here I am. Looking at a cursor, trying to spit out my thoughts. Trying to make sense of what I'm thinking. Maybe I just need lots of wisdom/advice to come my way. Maybe I need to relax and not worry about it. IMPOSSIBLE!