Tuesday night at the Sundance. I love it. By the way, it's a country dancing bar and it's so fun. Went for a friend's 21st and I think she had a grand ole' time. I had two really nice things happen to me, besides the obvious of getting to spend time with my awesome friends. But the first was as I was walking by the bar with Amanda, the band was playing the song "pretty woman." This boy tapped my arm and started singing the song to me. Soooo cute. I thought that would make my night but no. The second was when I was leaving the dance floor I was told my cowboy hat was on backwards. Fabulous, I love making an ass out of myself. Oh but wait, it gets better. A slow song came on and that guy who told me about me hat asked me to dance. I told him sure but I didn't know how. In the end, I danced two slow songs with him and it was great! Overall, the night was great.

Ok. Today I had a interview, I think it went well but whatever. Any ways. Time to change gears. I saw hot guy tonight and seriously tried to make an effort to talk to him. Some of you will refuse to believe me but I don't care cause I know how hard I tried. I was mildly upset due to my lack of success. I turned to my friend and told her what I had been trying to accomplish. After speaking with her, I realized it's a freaking lost cause. I told her it was really hard to strike up a conversation with him and she had well maybe cause he acts like he's too good to talk to us. And it's true. The reality is, he's too good looking and he knows it. He is one of those. He definitely didn't go out of his way to talk to any of us (in the group) when we were conversing about the weekend. I tried to smile and be as cute as possible but I was a failure to a boy who didn't even notice. So I've decided the Sex God ship has sailed. It sailed that first night when he gave me the wrong impression. Maybe I'm being dramatic, well I know I am. But it's pointless to like someone who doesn't even know you're alive. So no more talk of Sex God. No more pointless attempts at making myself noticeable.

How come the people you like never like you back? How come the people that like you, you never like!? It's freaking stupid if you ask me. What's the actuality we will find someone who we like and they like us back, equally the same? I know, this blog has turned cynical all the sudden. I'm not cynical, I'm just thrown for a realization I should have seen coming. So there you go. Now that I'm all bitter about my distorted judgment, I should study for my test.

"Closing time... Open all the doors and let you out into the world."