Good evening Fort Collins. How are you this lovely evening?

This weekend has been amazing. I'm without the words to describe what a great time I had. My interviews went well and everyone I met was just all sorts of fabulous. I admit I was a little sad to say goodbye to my new found friends. Who knows we might be lucky enough to work together. I don't want to talk about it too much, but I will be extremely sad if I don't get hired. I don't want to jinx myself!!!

Anyways. I find myself lately looking for the strength to forgive. Some people in my life have not been what I hoped or expected. But I know I shouldn't expect anything from my friends. That's why they are your friends, no expectations. I realized that's why I need to forgive. Even if it's just in my heart. I understand I'm expecting what I shouldn't and I should be happy with what I have. And I am happy. But that needs to be the bottom line. I also find myself in a bind with my feelings. I'm pretty sure I'm looking for what's not there. I'm doing too much comparing and trying to relate. I was told last week to stop thinking about life. And it's true, I definitely think too much. But as I was at church tonight, I prayed for people in my life to be healthy and well, I asked for guidance (as I always do) to understand. And at the end of mass, I had a sigh of relief because all is well. And my guidance will come, in one form or another. I need not worry so much and just do a little living. Like my mom would say "I hope you dance."

I apologize for the depressing blog. I was putting Titanic on my computer for my iPod. It's quite a mood downer. But on a lighter note, I believe the blog ended positively. I think I might do a little art or read tonight. It helps to indulge when you can.

"Once upon a December..."