Tonight was a great way to end the day. I got to spend time and ponder life with my good friend Justin. It's amazing how much we have in common and how nice it is when you have someone that understands what you are going through. I found myself in a conversation tonight about everyone having a tough semester. I don't feel like my semester has been tough. Maybe because I've lost some of my emotion. I'm admitting that I'm become numb to certain things in life. I've come to the conclusion, I don't know if I'm interested in getting into anything as far as relationships go. I don't know if I've found what I want or maybe found more of the image. Tonight my friends and I discussed our relationships or lack there of. I find myself wanting to be alone all the sudden again. I'm so damn fickle with my feelings its ridiculous, I'll never settle down at my rate. But the bright side is, you have the opportunity to see lot of the world when you aren't tied down to someone and I want to live everywhere.

After I left Justin tonight, I was headed home. Only when I started to go home I realized I didn't want to go home. So I drove around town, being just about the only car on the road. It was nice and a little soothing. I tried to think of what I want. I mean what do I really want? But then as usual I realized I will never know what I want. An empty College Avenue in Fort Collins really puts life into perspective. If you have any idea of what I mean.

Well, it's late and I will regret not sleeping more when I wake up. However, tonight, staying up late was pretty great. A lot of thinking about life and a little studying. Hey don't worry. I will do fine. My class will come and go but what matters is how I live my life.

And to my family that reads (particularly my relatives), don't be offended. I'm a little intimidated you guys read, but I also love that about you. Comment! And I'm not ashamed or embarrassed. It's just me, about my life. Don't take it for more than it is.