I had a pretty great weekend. It was Alex's birthday on Friday and I was the designated driver. It was a good time, however, tensions are up and it made parts of the night extremely lame. Not pointing fingers cause I'm guilty too but let's really think how much all of it is worth it. Water world fell through which was sad for me cause I really wanted to go but it happens. I did some shopping then saw War of the Worlds with my brother and his friend. By the way, it's not very good. I'm disappointed Spielberg and TOM! Had drinks with Jessie and then Sunday went to the Rockies game. It was an awesome weekend. It was nice to hang out with people that are so free about life. I mean, these people say whatever they are thinking and it's usually hilarious. Which makes me think of how sometimes I don't feel like I can act like myself. Or I feel guilty for being a certain way. With these people I hung out with today and my Fort Collins friends, I can say and do whatever I want. I feel like if I want to be outrageous no problem. My friends that I have been hanging out with recently are amazing. But I sometimes feel like I can't say what I'm thinking. Well, let me rephrase that. I can say what I'm thinking but they will all react like WOH KRISTIN. I'm not trying to call anyone out or anything. It just sucks when I feel like drinking or I feel like doing something out of the ordinary, I don't feel like it would be welcomed. I also feel like I have this stereotype over my head about the kind of person I am. Just because I like to go out and drink with my friends doesn't make me a lush. Just because I like to say outrageous things doesn't make me all outrageous. I don't know. Maybe I'm worried too much what others are going to think. Or maybe I let what others think effect me too much.

Enough bitching. Oh yeah no cussing Kristin. Trash mouth. I forgot that I'm an adult and I can make my own decisions. ANYWAYS. These last couple weeks have been screwing with me. I'm not really sure what to do or what to say about it. On one hand, it could be great and on the other I could be digging myself a large hole to throw myself in. Either way, I've managed to create my own drama in a matter of weeks. HOW LAME IS THAT.

Ok well, that's all I believe I have today. Not sure when I will be updating next due to be in the middle of nowhere South Dakota.