Trying to figure out what I think about life these days is a big waste of my time. See I've been having to soul search lately. I'm 99% sure the position I applied for I'm not going to get. Blah. I'm sick of how I feel, emotionally and physically. I feel like physically I've been stabbed a thousand times in the same spot. My body is just not recuperating from my sickness as well as it needs to. Emotionally, I've been taken to the cleaners. It is getting easier but yes this is apart of life and I just need to let it go. I saw an old old friend last night and it was a blast. So great to see her and she was in great spirits too. Ate lunch with another old friend today. I swear it feels like old times when we are together but at the same time we have changed so much. I need to get ready for Ryno's party tonight so this will be short.

I am becoming a big sister for the Big Brothers Big Sisters of Colorado organization. Thanks Jonny for the idea... I'm really excited, the paperwork process just takes a while. I'm also excited that the Christmas season is approaching. Not only do I love decorating but I love the whole family/friend time. I can't decide when the Christmas tree needs to go up... I'm thinking very soon. Well, that's really all I have for you today.

Live through today and you know you will make it through tomorrow. You have to.