Okay here it is. I'm sick of writing here. I have nothing really to say about life these days. My throat still hurts but it's getting better. I'm glad to be tonsil free. Been incredibly busy with work and other things that I don't remember. Trying to catch up on life. Trying to figure out what the hell is going on! Was in Utah 3 days this past week. Busy times living the PAW with Echo. Exhausted now. Looking into a place for when my lease is up. BOO. What else. I'm sorry my update is pathetic. I don't want to become a stranger here.

Sometimes I still think I'm going through the transition of being out of college. It's hard to get used to not meeting people. It's hard to get used to the "daily grind." I just had this relationship conversation with one of my coworkers today. He wanted some advice, some opinions. But after talking with him, I told him "what do I know!?" Just a weird conversation to have with him, I told him a little more about my recent challenges I have had to overcome. It was bizarre. Sometimes being alone makes you think about the past and what you could have done to change how you feel now. I think it's a black hole I would like to get out of. Lately, more so than ever, I have been so sick of thinking about finding a guy. Now, I honestly don't know how I'm going to find one but I am so sick of thinking about it. I guess you could say I'm very career minded right now. I've been so concerned about getting back into work since my surgery. I suppose I just want to get myself promoted, do something great. Save some money, invest and then I think my future husband will find me. Blah.

I suppose I could also be frustrated with work. I am trying so hard to make my mark and I'm realizing I have a long way to go. I'm realizing I need to be more patient than I know to be. There is still so much to learn. Competition at work is not easy to be around also. Trying to change others' reservations about what's really going on is difficult. I feel like I presented well at our seminars this week. However, I still feel like it's not enough. I have an opportunity next week to do some training. My challenge will be having to share this opportunity with a coworker. This past week someone said "take it for what it is, not what it's not." I guess that's how I should take all this. Opportunities are better than none. My age can be my competitive advantage! Hahaha. All right I'm done.

I hope everyone is well. I want to apologize for my absence from here. Sometimes you get so sick of telling your story especially when you don't think anyone is listening anymore. Maybe that sounds more sad then it's meant to. Maybe what it is, is that there is no story to tell.