I always have the blog itch at the beginning of a new year. I also always make some kind of resolution as I reflect on the last year. Last year, my resolutions were something like worry less, drink more and travel. Well I can tell you I worried a lot, drank a lot and actually ended up doing the traveling I wanted (almost failed on this one). When you are in Vail all the time, you drink, A LOT. The worried portion, well, it’s hard not to worry when your entire like starts changing and you aren’t on the bus. My resolutions this year are as follows 1) stop compromising so much in my relationships 2) cook more 3) eat healthier 4) read 5) run another marathon. That’s a lot of resolutions I know. I have already been working on 4 out of the 5. I suppose you could say all 5 since I’m a bit adverse to relationships right now. 1) the glacier is operating on limited hours right now 2) I’ve cooked twice this week 3) I’ve made three healthy recipes this week 4) I think I read like five pages (sad but a start; the book is about Bali which is on my bucket list) 5) I signed up for the Steamboat marathon yesterday. Training begins next week.
So where do I begin 2013 here? Let’s reflect on 2012, the good, the bad and the ugly. Let’s start with the bad… it’s always nice to end with the good right?
The bad/ugly (level of rubbish delineates if it is bad or ugly):
· Scott and I ended. Our relationship started to go south in the summer around the time of my birthday, oddly, our anniversary. It took me a long time to realize what type of relationship I really wanted. When it finally ended, it didn’t end in a pretty way which just made things harder and to this day, I can’t help but be sad about what happened.
· The second guy. Well my friends would probably call him a rebound and at this point I’d like to refer to him a brief blip in the radar. It was a whirlwind of awesomeness until its wasn’t awesome at all. I inadvertently overacted (as women do) and it ultimately caused the end. After feeling sadly heartbroken from the radar blip, I found out he was actually a liar. That made it a lot easier to move on and also ecstatic that I screwed up since he was lying about other woman (of course right?). Sadly, I’m not sure how I could of saw or knew that was really this person deep down. He did teach me about some qualities I want in a man that I’ve never had before.
· My job. I feel like I’ve lost my touch! I need to find my passion and challenge again. This has been a complete mind f, if you know what I mean and if you know me at all. Don’t ask, don’t get right?
· My house. Well first it was the garage door then it was a random leak all over my new hardwood floors. Then it was the need for safety. Crisis adverted with a bunch of money and ADT.
The good:
· My soul. I was pretty damn physically active. Steamboat half marathon, Divas sprint triathlon and the Denver Rock ‘n’ Roll marathon. That’s about 4 months out of the year that I wasn’t training. Two years ago, I never ran more than 3 miles at one time. I am proud. I also picked up lame Zumba and hot yoga which is changing my body as a runner.
· My house. I renovated! New hardwood floors, counters, sinks and cabinets. Still paying it off but worth it, hopefully, when I go to sell my house.
· My job. While it’s been difficult for a while, it still is pretty great. I am in a leadership program at work and it is extremely motivating. I also won a Best Coach award. I love my team.
· Travel. I travelled like a mad woman for work, went to Florida with Scott and ended the year with a trip to Australia and New Zealand. Highlight? New Zealand! Saw an old college friend (but a goodie!) in Australia and New Zealand. Jessie and her boyfriend literally saved me from myself. It was a great way to wrap up 2012.
· My family and friends. I’m lucky. I am freaking lucky. My family is great and I even have a new nephew or niece on the way! I love being an aunt. And my friends. There are no words for these people but they are the loves of my life. These people make life so much fun and bearable when it’s hard. I am beyond grateful. The list is long so I won’t bother cause you know who you are.
Now for this year. You’ve heard my resolutions. What I didn’t mention is I will definitely have to plan another big trip (South America anyone?). Right now, I’m super focused on beginning marathon training, reading up on taking care of my body, snowboarding and just plain living. I’ll end this post about running cause it consumes my mind.
No one ever understands why I run because I say I hate it. And in all actuality, I don’t anymore. I think yoga has helped but what really helped was an epiphany from yesterday. Training for a marathon gave me clarity. It helped me realize things about my life and choices that I never had the courage to admit or was never open enough to see. Not only is it physically challenging but it’s more mentally challenging for me then anything I have going on. It’s mind numbing. When life is hard, running makes it hard to think of anything else. Running is something I have complete control over. No one can do it for me and no one is responsible for my race accomplishments. I will redefine my impossible.
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