The lamest of the lame.

It's what I feel that makes me the way I am. I feel like so much has happened but so much has not. Thank you to everyone for your words. It's helpful to know there are others that know how I feel or what I'm going through. Lately I feel like I've become my worst enemy. I've become what I've never wanted to be, something less than the truth. Someone that they pretends they have it all together when maybe they don't. I'm not that girl. I'm the girl that's still trying to find my way. But know this. I'm lucky. My friend Danielle had to evacuate from her school because it was in New Orleans. You know, where the freaking hurricane is! She is an example everyday in my life when I think I don't have enough. Because she is happy and she doesn't need much. She has an amazing relationship with God and she has an incredible heart. She is an inspiration to me to be a better person every day. She inspires me to realize what really satisfies me in life. And it's definitely not the reason I have two jobs. It's kinda a crazy. The more I settle into a longer routine, the more I feel content. I have a friend at work who to me seems like she has turned into one of my best friends. I'm lucky. Another good thing... I figured out a direction for my career at my company. I'm going to make a difference! Sounds corny, but I think I can do it. It's just going to take some time. See I work for this amazingly large corporation that makes billions in profit. Shoot, our CEO is the richest man in Colorado. But what does my company do for the community? Not much I'll tell you that. So that's where I come in. I create an opportunity for myself to make a difference at my job, to make a difference in others lives. How great would that be? Don't get me started on my ideas for this. But I'll tell you what. I have a vision for what I can do. I just need someone to believe in me and my friend at work does. That's a start.

Anyways. I love you Mom, Dad, Jay and Tim. We miss you Nessa. I know Grandma in heaven is feeding you table scraps. I know Grandma and Grandpa are taking care of you. We love you and miss you.
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I will be posting pictures of my weekend extravaganza momentarily. Don't worry Jessie, we were a good time. I hope this finds everyone well.