Spending time with old friends, looking at old pictures and watching new movies. Talk about bringing up lots of different emotion. I have had a wonderful weekend so far. Relaxing and uplifting in the weirdest way. Listened to the new drama that is upon Fort Collins. Almost tragic that some things will never change. And that's not even in relationship to just being up here. Going to Vegas in 2 weeks. Looking forward to change of scenery and some good wholesome fun.

Well, things have not worked out how I had planned. I think everything that has happened or hasn't happened is for a reason. I suppose I wanted to prove myself to those that didn't believe in me. Competition in the workplace can be overwhelming. Competition in life is even more overwhelming. Why do people choose to explain themselves to others? Is it in hopes to make themselves feel less insecure? Why do we have to think we have prove certain things to our friends? Why do we convince ourselves things are not how they really are? Just thinking about lots of different things these days. Not in a bad way. In a bigger way and that's more important.

My oldest brother is happier these days. It's wonderful actually. Refreshing to see others light up when you have a hard time lighting up yourself. I'm not sad though. I'm content. I think I'm finally finding contentness in the midst of all this chaos. My other brother called me out of the blue. Unfortunately, I wasn't there. But it was wonderful to hear him. I hope you are doing well Tim! I love you tons.

Anyways. Take care everyone.